Friday, April 30, 2010

Hero of the Sun

I am currently writing a two-part fantasy series, called Hero of the Sun. I am halfway through the first book, titled Child of the Sun. Hero of the Sun follows the adventures of a young boy by the name of Luke Redforsen, from age one to nineteen. The story is set in the magically isolated country of Premia, on a fantastic planet called Vanity, where magic is commonplace and monsters prominent across the land.

Abandoned by his elvish parents, Luke is found and raised by a desert-dwelling tribe of Amazon women, called the Diajans. They are humanoid, with a genetic disorder that kills most male infants, so they are in desperate need of males. A despised race, their only King labors to gain the support and recognition of the conquering elvish race. Luke is sent to the Premian High Court to represent the new Diajan Province, now annexed to Premia. Suddenly surrounded by his own race, Luke must decide what identity to choose, that of a Diajan or a Premian. Meanwhile, he is involved in court intrigue, as well as a plot by the Diajan King to overthrow the Premian throne.

Luke is not your typical fantasy hero. He relies on his wits before magic or force, as more of a trickster character than a muscle-bound sword-slinger.

Warrior of the Sun, the second installment of HotS, has a more common plot. Luke returns from a four-year exile to right the wrongs he has perpetrated against Premia, and finally take his adult place in the new culture of the country, all while trying to save Premia from the greedy hands of the war-mongering world beyond Premia’s magical borders.

Throughout the Hero of the Sun series, I will explore these themes:

Racism
Feminism
Homosexuality/Bisexuality
Systems of government
Identity Crises
Healthy romantic relationships
Gender identity
Morality
Sex
Rape
Death
Adoption
Drugs
Spirituality and the afterlife

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian

The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian was my favorite book to read for this class so far. I found Junior to be both funny and admirable. I admire his drive, his patience, and his persistence. I’m little skeptical about a stuttering and lisping kid becoming popular. But perhaps the fact that he was the only Indian in Reardan made him unique enough that he could get away with more differences. Penelope seemed a little clichéd, but she’s still young, so its forgivable. Rowdy is an interesting character, both friend and rival to Junior. The troubles on the reservation are downright heartbreaking – the limited opportunities missing. I was aware that there are alcohol problems in most Native American reservations, but damn. His parents are both alcoholics – his dad’s best friend dies of an alcohol-induced accident, his grandmother is hit by a drunk driver, his sister burns to death because she’s drunk, and on and on. Junior was right to try to get out of that life. He must have done a lot of thinking on that twenty-two mile trip to his school. There were some elements that I found a little clichéd, but satisfying nonetheless – these elements are used for a reason, after all – Junior’s getting the girl by dating Penelope, and winning the game against Junior. I like the art in this book, and how there are three drawing styles: doodles, comics, and realistic drawings. My sister is an artist and she draws in different styles as well.
I really enjoyed The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian, and was disappointed to reach the end. I’ll definitely be reading this again.

Betsey Brown

At some points in Betsey Brown I had trouble figuring out what is going on. Vida seems prejudiced, both against blacks and whites – I wonder what she classifies herself as? I understand Betseys rage when Bernice deprives her of her private place of the tree outside her window – I too have a spot in the woods that I covet. It’s a good half-hour walk but well worth it: is secluded, with a great view in all directions, but no one can see you from where you are – and the ground is covered with velvet moss so thick and cushiony that I took a nap there once. This spot of mine is now going to be bulldozed and turned into houses and a neighborhood. Someday I will go back there, only to see it will be gone. It’s a bittersweet feeling.

Carrie has a very unusual fashion sense – two dresses over each other and a rope around her waist? Weird. But I like her personality – her wise, take-no-nonsense attitude. I like how she showed Betsey to run the house, and taught the other children how to help around the house properly.

I don’t think Jane makes a very good mother or wife – she doesn’t seem to be around the children enough, and doesn’t understand her husband’s selflessness. Still, she’s better than Vida. Greer needs to be around the kids more often, but other than that, I like him, and how he teaches his children about their black heritage.

I laughed out loud when, early on in the book, Betsey and her friends are counting their pubic hairs, curling them and putting hair cream on them.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Outline

Isolation

1. Intro
a. Hook
b. Thesis
i. Every teenager feels alienated during adolescence – this is necessary for identity formation.
2. Paragraph 1
a. Being alone lets you get to know yourself better.
i. Huck’s love of the wilderness. (Twain)
ii. Betsy’s special spot in her tree. (Shange)
iii. My introversion, love of forest preserve.
3. Paragraph 2
a. The teenager is transitioning from childhood to adulthood.
b. Alone, teenager must accept increasing responsibility
i. Betsy’s responsibility as oldest in her family. (Shange)
ii. My trouble with juggling illness and school.
c. Teenager may rebel against new responsibilities.
4. Paragraph 3
a. Erik Erikson’s psychosocial stage of identity vs. role confusion
b. Finding a place in the adult world for one’s self.
i. Huck Finn example.
c. Motivation questionable
i. My experience.
5. Paragraph 4
a. Alienation from adults
i. Examples from Hine
b. Alienation from teens
i. My alienation from my peers, maturity/illness drove off potential friends.
6. Conclusion
a. Summary of previous points
b. Parting shot:
i. It is through experience of isolation that we can appreciate company.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Huck Finn

I enjoyed Huck Finn, but I really don’t like Tom Sawyer. When they meet up again, it’s obvious how Huck’s adventure has changed him. He seems older and more mature than Tom. I was rather disappointed that he still followed Tom’s lead. Tom is still a child – with no thoughts towards the consequences of his actions or any regard for others feelings. Rather than acting decently towards others, particularly Jim, he causes all sorts of trouble. It’s not just that he’s a prejudiced white boy – he is thoughtlessly cruel to the white characters as well, with all his pranks and scares. Where Huck has grown to form his own personal values and has begun to think of others, such as Jim’s freedom and humanity, Tom thinks only of his own pleasure and what he perceives as the proper and most enjoyable way of doing things. I agree with Mark Twain that readers would not enjoy a more adult version of Tom Sawyer – he would be nothing more than a white bigot.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Charlotte Patel

This is an alternate version of Charlotte Temple.

Charlotte Patel
By Erica Raab

In groups or alone, the passengers filed onto the 747 jet. Even the economy class was spacious – the seats in columns of three, divided by two aisles. The middle row held three seats, rows of two on either side across the wide walkways. The seats were blue but faded, the lighting soft but bright. The air had that peculiar smell all passenger planes carry – of recycled air, cleanser, peanuts and people.

Anna Beauchamp stepped carefully off the Jetway and into the open hatch of the plane. The small gap between the bridge and the plane door always bothered her a little, the hard cement ground visible from high above. A cheerful, bottle blonde flight attendant welcomed the older woman aboard with a practiced smile.

She checked her boarding pass as she walked down the aisle, looking for seat 28A. A very young woman, Asian, no older than sixteen, sat in the window seat, pretty face slack with exhausted sleep. An infant slept on her chest, cradled in one careful arm, dark hair wispy and fine. She looked so tired Anne left her to her sleep. Anne had been looking forward to the window seat, but settled for the aisle seat. At least it wasn’t a middle seat, she thought. The woman stowed her baggage in the overhead compartment, after removing a pair of books from her carry-on – entertainment for the three-hour flight from O’Hare in Chicago, to LAX in Los Angeles.

She settled in her seat with her copy of The Seer and the Sword - young adult fantasy was her guilty pleasure, despite being a fully grown adult with children of her own. When the seatbelt sign blinked on overhead, Anne checked the girl’s seatbelt. It was fastened, so she didn’t bother to wake the young woman.

The dark-haired mother and child slept through takeoff. The baby woke as they rose to cruising altitude, pressure pushing painfully on sensitive eardrums, and began to wail, waking its mother. The girl rocked her baby, cooing in a foreign language to her child, then fished out a pacifier, popping it into the babe’s mouth. The small child’s face scrunched in annoyance, then subsided, beginning to suck strongly.

“Hello,” Anne said once the baby was soothed. “I’m Anne Beauchamp. Where are you headed?” The young woman blinked dark brown eyes, then smoothed sleek black hair behind an ear.

“India. More specifically, Bombay.” She said in perfect, British English. “I’m Charlotte Patel. Pleasure to meet you. Where are you going?” She had a lovely voice, soft but musical.

“My family is headed to California for Spring Break. My husband is with our two sons - in business class – we were able to upgrade three of our tickets, but one of us had to sit in economy class, so I elected to sit back here, since I don’t mind.”

“So you are on holiday?” Charlotte asked, tilting her head.

“Yes.”

“I remember taking vacations, back when I lived with my family, we…” The girl trailed off, then sighed.

“Yes?” Anne prompted, curiosity piqued. Charlotte smiled faintly, eyes distant. Her baby drooped on her lap, falling asleep again, pacifier still in her mouth.

“Perhaps… I was told it is easy to tell one’s troubles to a stranger that you will never see again. Would you like to hear mine?”

“I’ll listen, if you want me to.” Anne said quietly, trying not to sound eager.

“I made mistakes. But I cannot regret them. Lucy is the best mistake I ever made.

“I was born in Bombay. My father was a wealthy man, old money, older name. His forebears lost a lot of the money, but he gained much of it back when he started a for-profit charity organization. He met my mother and grandfather early on, before he got the company off the ground. My grandpapa was filing for a loan, as he was deeply in debt. They had been in good money before their fortunes turned ill. They were living in the slums when my father met them. Their story is a long one on its own, but I must tell mine – theirs is not mine to tell, not truly.

“I realize now how much they sheltered me. We had no television, and everything I read had to be approved, except for the Qur’an. I was fifteen when I met Jamal Montraville. He was full of pretty words, his face was even prettier. He seemed to be going places, high places. I thought myself in love with him, and he urged me to come with him to America, he was to go to University there, to become a doctor. He convinced me to go with him, obtained visas for both of us. He said it was a crime to keep me locked away, that I should go out and see the world, and become a modern woman. Modern woman,” Charlotte snorted bitterly, “As if that meant anything.”

“We left India for America. It was a long flight, with many connections. Jamal took me to Chicago, near the college he was going to – the University of Illinois Chicago. He set me up in a pretty apartment in the city, with money for rent, utilities and food. He was to stay at the college dormitories, but he visited me every day at first. I was so fortunate that my parents raised me to speak both Hindi and English, I don’t think I could have survived on my own if I had not spoken the predominant language of where I lived.

Jamal promised to marry me once he graduated, reassured me of his love so often that I thought I was merely giving him his husbandly rights whenever he came to me. We were careful. We used condoms, but two or three times they broke. He stared to drift away from me, as college got harder for him. I bought a small television, read whatever I wanted to. Maybe it was these new freedoms that made me change into something unfit for him. And then he met her. Julia Franklin. She was half-white, but her mother was Indian, and she was good friends with Jamal’s mother. She’d moved to America and met Julia’s father. The two mothers arranged a marriage between their children. Jamal had resisted it, with his promise to me, but she drove over from Cleveland, where she lived. As soon as they met they were infatuated with each other.

“I did not know this at the time. All I knew what that Jamal came less and less to see me. I had turned from fiancé to a kept woman. Just as I found I was pregnant, Jamal told me he was marrying his other woman, and told me everything. When I told him I was carrying his child, he told me to get an abortion. How could I?

“He married her, and stopped paying for my needs. It was mid-winter when I was evicted, and I was heavily pregnant, perhaps six months along. Rather than risk an endangerment charge, my landlord drove me to a homeless shelter. They were full for the night, but let me sleep on the floor. Someone lent me a pillow. After that, I slept in shelters, ate in food kitchens, and spent my time in libraries or train stations to keep warm. I read a lot in those days, to keep my mind off of what had happened to me. They found me a job, waitressing in an Indian restaurant. They liked me there. Maybe it was my pretty face, or something else. I do not know.

“I had Lucy in a free clinic. There was no money for a place to live, not with her needs, but a charity placed me in a home for women who were abused, who had children. They looked after my daughter while I worked. I saved up enough money to send my family a letter. I asked for their forgiveness, told them how low I had fallen. I saved my money, and bought the tickets to get back to Bombay.

“And here I am. I will fly from Chicago to Los Angeles, from Los Angeles to Tokyo, and Tokyo to Bombay. And hopefully my family will be there to welcome me and my child.” Charlotte finished, fingers stroking the soft black down on her infant’s head.

“That’s an amazing story.” Anne said, “I can tell you are a very strong woman.”

“Thank you. But I do not think I am. I cried too much back then. I think, if I had been somewhere else, I might have died in the winter cold. Who knows? I think I will ask my family to get a television when I return. Do you think they might?” The woman asked, suddenly looking girlish and entirely her own age. Anne shrugged.

“Well, I suppose they might. I don’t know them, though.”

After that, Lucy began to cry. Charlotte pulled out a blanket and began to nurse her.

The two woman spoke of inconsequential things for the rest of the flight after that. They shook hands before disembarking, and never saw each other again.

Charlotte walked away through the terminal, loaded down with baby and baby supplies. Her back was straight, and unbroken.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

On Ms. Temple

Overall, I thought the true moral of the story was not running of for love, but rather the danger of oversheltering young women. Children need to make mistakes to learn from them, but Charlotte was never given the chance, locked away in her boarding school. Her teacher failed to watch over her properly, and the weak-minded Charlotte succumbed to peer pressure. I actually felt the woman who kicked Charlotte out would have been perfectly justified if Charlotte had not been pregnant and it had not been midwinter. But lives for the humble and honest were hard back them, particularly in over-taxed America, where the well-spoken British officers could force them to shelter and feed them with no recompense.
I myself am writing a fantasy novel in which a young woman has a child out of wedlock, but it has a far better ending.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Topic for lit paper...

I'm thinking about writing my paper on teen suicide. It's the third leading cause for people ages 15-24, which is huge - and those kinds of deaths are devastating for everyone in the situation. Granted, death is hard all around - but suicide really hits you hard if you knew them. You think, did I do anything wrong? How could I not see it coming? Women are three times more likely to commit suicide, but men are three times more effective in actually succeeding. Which ends up with a fairly equal number of successful attempts between the sexes.
Suicide is a very personal topic for me, I've known people who tried, and one who succeeded, and even closer to home than even that.
At such a young age, it's easier to not comprehend the consequences of such a fatal action - death is often romanticized. I consider suicide to be an incredibly selfish act.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Hine part two.

I found it interesting that Hine thinks that the key process of Erik Erikson’s theory for adolescence – the search for identity – is being pushed aside for shallow tribe identification. I have to agree.


I remember some of the groups in my school – the stoners, the slackers, the dumb jocks, the smart jocks, the preps, the drama kids, the Slytherins (as they called themselves), the manga crowd, the goths of course, the passionate Latina girls, the soccer gangs, and my own group of the ‘vanilla freaks’. The vanilla freaks were not weird enough to be punks or Goths, but not mainstream enough to register as either preps or slackers. We were the weird, smart, quiet kids – tech savvy but not so much to be geeks or nerds. It’s interesting how everyone in highschool compartmentalizes themselves into one group or another in order to feel a sense of belonging. Even though my main crowd was the vanilla freaks, I associated with other kids in different groups outside of class, which was unheard of in my school. I never really felt a part of any group, never really identified myself personally as this or that. But most of my friends were vanilla freaks, so that was the crowd I hung with – and I thought hey, I like vanilla – I did all right.


I’ve always been very introverted, so I know myself pretty well. I think one of the reasons I felt a little more mature than my peers was because I already knew who I was, even if I didn’t know what I wanted to be.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Testing, testing...

This is merely a test, and profile.
Rin Rabble - that's me - is a part-time college student at a small Catholic college by the name of Ursuline College. It has nuns, which automatically makes it a lot cooler than most. I'm majoring in English, and minoring in Psychology.
I'm writing a series of fantasy-drama novels by the name Soul-Bound. I'm still on the first book, which is progressing nicely.
I am the oldest of three children, I have three cats, and five bookshelves doubly stacked with books.
I am a very liberal Catholic who believes in universalism - the belief that there is truth to be found in every religion great or small. I think everyone should be able to go to heaven - even the evil, who I hope will enter heaven and realize that they've been wrong all along, and behave better once they learn the truth. Those who are not capable of feeling guilt for bad actions are sick in the head, and should thus be treated mercifully by God, who made them that way. I'm not saying that murderers should be let free to roam the streets killing wantonly. I'm all for prison - but eternity is an awfully long time to be punished. Hell should really be repentance camp, rehabilitating the unworthy into souls healthy enough to join their fellow children of God in heaven.
I love to read, write, sing, and sleep. Music is a great inspiration for me. I like to think deep thoughts, ponder the why of things, the whys of peoples, the ticking of the universe.

I'm socially liberal but fiscally conservative. I do not approve of abortion, but it must be kept legal, or women will resort to poison and wire hangers in back alleys. There is nothing sinful about committed love - homosexuality is not evolutionarily practical, but not sinful: they should be allowed to marry. I have nothing against polyfidelity - committed relationships, not polyamory.

There is no such thing as REAL Americans and 'fake' Americans, unless it is a matter of legal citizenship. Whoever believes that should be ashamed of themselves.
The Bible is not perfect. It was written by humans with imperfect memories, and translated by imperfect people who were people of their times. It's all about context. The Bible is an attempt at perfection, but shows its flaws. In the same chapter it condemns homosexuality, speaks of how to sell one's children into slavery, and bans the consumption of shellfish. Really, people.
There is nothing perfect on this earth, not since Jesus left. I believe this is such so that we can truly appreciate heaven.

I don't like the self-righteous, and those who don't try to put themselves in the shoes of others. I know it's hard - walk a mile in someone else's shoes and you will get blisters. It's the trying part that matters.

Forgiveness is the key to personal salvation.

I am a comic-book and fantasy nerd.

And that's me run out of steam.
Talk to y'all later.

Kudos,
Rin.